seasons

yesterday i got together with a friend who has a little guy that is absolutely going to be a lady killer.  we met at the park on what i thought would be a rainy day and were blessed with some sunshine among the clouds. i held him the whole time as we walked around the lake and shared in life and the different seasons, questions, joys, struggles, and uncertainties of today and tomorrow. it was sweet just to be reminded that though we wouldn't always choose what we have...we have exactly what we need. it's always curious to me how often we as people might want to trade places...that i might want to trade all my freedom and independence in exchange for the gift of holding my own child, and that another might want to trade all the non-idealistic realities of marriage and children for the freedom that is still mine.  

so it's all about seasons i suppose...some seem to stretch on much longer than expected, and some go so quickly that we wish memories could recapture what is now gone.  but still, in all the loss that is inherent in the changing seasons, i am reminded that new life always comes from the death...new beginnings always from an end.  dickens once said that the heart will always be a mystery even to those nearest.  in some ways it gives me rest i guess...that I am NOW with the One who sees me...and He is the One who turns the seasons.